The Duck Pond
Friday, February 18, 2005
I'm off on my skiing holiday tomorrow but I'm more nervous and stressed than excited. I could really do without it all at the moment.
Got home to find Boo's neck all bloody and puss-filled. Rang the vet in alarm but apparently it's a burst abscess and nothing to worry about. I took him in so they could check it wasn't going to get infected but apparently it's healing fine and he's already on antibiotics, which should protect him. The vet is more worried about the lump which has appeared on his nose. It could be another abscess or it could be something else. If it gets worse he has to go back to the vet immediately, otherwise it can wait until I get back. The poor guy who said he'll look after them while I'm away is getting a bit more than he bargained for!
Monday, February 07, 2005
I can't decide whether using titles in my blog helps or not so there may be a bit of inconsistency where I randomly pick and choose where I use them. I suppose they work with longer blogs that cover plenty of different topics but don't work as well when I'm just summarising stuff. Also I can sit there for ages trying to think of a snappy title when I could be spending my time much more valuably.
Skiing (and possibly snowboarding) in a couple of weeks but very nervous about it. It doesn't help that I'm going with a bunch of people I've never met before in my life and I'm starting to remember how difficult I found it last time. I enjoyed it but I found it very hard and frustrating at times and every morning, no matter how much confidence I'd built up the previous day, I'd find myself as nervous and scared as I was on the first day. I'm sure it'll be fine but my mind does like to worry about these things.
What doesn't help also is that I've got a lot of work to get finished between now and then so I can't really start looking forward to it because I feel like I've got a huge mountain to climb first. Additionally to all this, I have to train two people for a week, starting the Monday I get back. I'm very nervous about this as I'm not qualified for any of it and I have no clue how I'm going to get through it. I know I'm going to be worrying about it all the way through my holiday. I suppose the best plan is to work as hard as I can to get as much prepared as possible before I go. I keep telling myself I'll be OK and that worse things happen at sea but I'm not sure I'm really convinced. Ho hum. Anyway here I go...
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Right being ill gives you lots of time to think and friends dying suddenly certainly puts you in the mood to. I've come to a few decisions. Time to stop wasting time on crap (you'd be surprised what I can find to do when I'm trying to put something off) and to stop trying to keep in touch with people who clearly can't be bothered to keep in touch with me (and hence making more time for people who do). Time to cut out the dead wood from my life so I can spend more time on friends and on doing things that are important to me.
Also time to finally get off my fat arse and do some of the stuff I've been meaning to do "oh, some time in the future" *wave hand*.
Anyway less waffling, more doing.
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Let's hope February's a bit better than January, it hasn't seemed to stop this month!
Just about getting over the illness although still a few twinges and a headache. I just want things to get back to normality now. At least I no longer feel like I have an alien about to burst out of my stomach, and it would probably have been a relief if one had. It was so bad I couldn't walk or anything, just hobbled around like a mad old thing. Anyway my antibiotics have run out so I'm worrying that it might all come back as it obviously hasn't completely gone. Back to work tomorrow, I'm getting completely depressed sitting around here all on my own and there's only so much Buffy you can watch without going insane.
